Tilt, School, and thoughts

So i have kind of a new way of dealing with being on tilt. yesterday i lost 10kish, i deserve that 10k, i feel like i played very well and was unlucky to lose. so to counter that i think of a time where i won money that i didn't deserve. lets take FTOPS for example. when we were down to 3 tables i got all my money in with K10s vs AK. i won the hand on the river and survived my all in... eventually leading to my victory.

Another example. At the very beginning of the summer i was supposed to take summer school. My aunt called me up and wanted me to go on a trip that summer. The only way it was possible was if i dropped school. so school i dropped. i made about 20k in the cash games that summer where i would of been in school otherwise. (maybe not giving me a sufficient roll to play the FTOPS)

So yes, im still stuck 10k, this morning i was running really well, then things came to a sudden screech, i was up about 4k and i took a 2 outter beat. followed by a 8 outter. both with 1 card to come, and both times i was holding 3 of a kind sixes. that set me about even for the day.
im going to move back down a little bit while i clear my head. i really need to tell myself that i WILL get this money back eventually. whether it is today, tomorrow, or a month from now. it will soon return, thats just how poker works. everyone has to lose, its the nature of the game.


School

I hate it here. I do not like my classes, my teachers, or the people around me. No offense, but by the way people act and talk, i feel like this how they institutionalize the inferior. This is a college campus and i feel as if i am smarter than my teachers. I am not making any friends here. and the people i know from high school i ignore for the most part.

A while ago i was at a party talkin to a friend, she asked me how school was going, i gave my usual "smeh". she somehow knew exactly what i meant when i said that. she said "Alex, maybe school isn't your thing, have you tried anything else?" It wasn't until then that i realized there may be other options. But the thought of dropping school to do anything else was so foreign at the time."


Like anything else, im not going to just give up and call it quits. Im going to remain in school for at least a week. have to give it the old college try (heh). If things continue the way they are going, i see no point in staying. my grades will eventually slip, if i am not enjoying something i will not excel in it. and i don't want to do a mediocre job at something i dislike. And that's what it comes down to for me, I dislike school.


but id like to hear what everyone else thinks. what would you do in my shoes?